Life Changes

Sometimes, it only takes a simple sentence to change your life forever.

“Will you marry me?”

“Your mother and I are getting a divorce.”

“I’m moving across the world and will miss you.”

“I can’t do this anymore.”

“I got the job”

Yes, the most shocking ones are usually the most depressing, but every so often, one sentence comes along that brings tears to your eyes and causes your skin to tingle with magic.

“Congratulations, you’re pregnant with a little girl!”

@ 12 Weeks Sticking Out Her Tongue...A Rebel Already, Lord Help Me

That one, that one brought me to my knees. Hearing the sonogram tech say those words made it real. Not only had the roundness in the midsection (yeah, I felt the urge to hit the gym daily but just didn’t) been feeling, eh, lazy, but it didn’t make the pregnancy REAL.

Well, ladies and gents, hearing, “yes, those three lines right there, definitely a baby girl,” gave me butterflies. It made me flash forward to looking into the eyes of a sweet baby, picking out a first dance outfit, getting her ready for her first date (and her daddy polishing his gun collection in the process), and watching her walk down the aisle. In a mere two minutes, I thought about all the milestones we would watch our baby girl take with us and prayed that I wouldn’t mess it up.

I prayed, folks, REAL hard that He gave me the strength to follow in the steps of my amazingly incredibly strong Mother, who always taught us to use our heart and brains to get anywhere we wanted to be. I prayed that I’d have her compassion and generous heart to give to my daughter.

My daughter…

Even writing this, it brings tears to my eyes to know that a tiny human lives (and now breathes) inside of me at this moment. My lil’ angel watches over me daily and knows how much this means to me. God’s given me another chance, and there’s nothing I wouldn’t do to make this round a perfect one.

So, my dearest baby girl, I’ll do my best to be a good mommy for you, to be your biggest supporter, always in  your corner and your best friend. I won’t always be the one you run to, but know I’ll ALWAYS be here when you need me.

Dear the next few months, please go easy on me. The world spins enough, how about we go easy on the nausea, huh?